痛苦与荣耀

We all ephemeral exist, we all fire the road.

Enlightenment

I never imagine in the arid summer, my body would be turned on by a guy who is illiteracy and came to my home to be my student. His talent may be average but his body is a gem. I felt a flurry of dizziness liking be shot by an arrow of Cupid. I thought I got a fever but more than that. He was enlightened by my language teaching and I was enlightened by his body. In the last years of my life, I always cherish the feeling of what I received that summer and take the spark of the love to enlighten my whole life journey.

Compensation

I feel a lot of pain in my body and I think it's the lessons I want to learn from the aging, I got a lot of awards and reputation which make me looks like a prestigious director. But I'm a mortal, I always dream of a man who can company with me for a long time, I was hoped I can help my mom to arrange her funeral in her birthplace, all the things I got will transform to other pity I want to get rid of. It's a compensation for me when I addicted to the drugs I also have the inspiration to write the scripts, when I felt the body's pain I also can reconnect with the people who came across my life before and always live in my heart.

Missing

I know life is an episode of rhapsody, have the climax also the end. Be forward and let them go is my philosophy to deal with the world, I company with the people when we have a great time together and keep them in mind when they are gone forever. Life is a pilgrimage to appreciate everything I was encountered, I missed the guy who tells me who I am in my childhood, I missed the guy who tells me what is love in my juvenile, I missed the partner who tells me what is forgive and I missed the woman who is the only audience to see me from my birth to her death. I missed the missing and I'm missing what I missed.

Time will tell everything, time will give the answer.