亢奋 特别篇

众所周知台词是编剧的艺术，而在这次特别集里编剧更是火力十足，这篇不算什么剧评，只想单纯剥析一下黑人老哥是如何让rue这样一个习惯说谎者说实话的。

Rue: Look, Ali, I know you don't believe me, but I'm doing really good, actually. I mean like, you know, everything could suddenly shit flip and get super dark? I mean it could, but, I feel like I've found this, like, amazing balance, where I'm like happy and healthy, and I'm not, like, looking to anybody else for that happiness, you know? Fucking jules.......
rue开头一段长篇大论，一边blabla一边玩弄着吸管，ali的表情非常微妙。rue这里说了两点，一，她觉得她现在可以掌控自己，二，jules已经是过去式了，自己不再需要她来获得所谓的幸福。第二点是观众不知道的，因为在第一季结尾算个半开放结局，而中间的故事在后续一个小时的对话中会一点点揭示开来。

Rue: I'm the point, you know?
Ali: The point is your sobriety.
Rue: Yeah. Of course. Yeah, and like, my, my general overall well-being.
Ali: Which starts with your sobriety
Rue: Yeah. Mm-hmm. And, like finding an emotional balance, you know?
Ali: You just said you found an amazing balance.
Rue: I...I did, I have. I, I mean, but I'm not perfect, you know, so... I'm, I'm sane, though, like, I'm sane, saner. I'm making sane decisions.
Ali: Rue.You're high.
Rue: I feel like you're not listening to what I'm saying.
Ali: Rue, I don't think you're listening to what you're saying.
Ali直接把话说开了，rue并不知道她在说什么，对话最后rue干笑了几声，开始边吃煎饼边说话。

Rue: Yeah, I mean, it's not like I'm doing a bunch of shit. I'm just smoking a little bit of weed.
Ali: My point is, it's not gonna last.
Rue: Yeah, well, neither do my moods when I'm sober.
Ali: Okay ,well, you know, I'm not saying you're a paragon of mental health. You've got your issues, and you're gonna be struggling with those issues for the rest of your life. That's a fact. The problem is ,is that you look at sobriety as a weakness in the face of those issues, and I'm saying is, sobriety is your greatest weapon.
Rue开始真正talking（like数量明显减少），ali第一步表示理解，接着像天下所有的家长一样，指出清醒才是唯一的出路。

rue的微表情都很有层次

Rue: Ali, can I tell you something?
Ali: What were you gonna say?
Rue: ...Ah, it doesn't matter. It's stupid.
Ali: All right, I'm sorry. Come on.
Rue: Nah. I don't wanna...
Ali: Say it.

Rue: When I'm, when I'm clean, you know, when I'm present, like a part of this world, I don't just think about relapsing. It's, it's darker than that. And, you can say that sobriety is my, greatest weapon, but...to tell you the truth, drugs are probably the only reason I haven't killed myself.
至此，rue终于开始说实话。ali 指出rue之前的不真诚，rue却表示，她一直都很真诚。看完第一季的我们都知道，rue可能是剧中最真诚的人了，那问题出自哪儿呢。

Ali: "Whatever,man"? whatever, man. Listen, young blood. I was shooting dope before your mama's egg dropped.I've lived a whole motherfuckin' life to get to this diner to sit across form your arrogant ass, so don;t you ever "whatever" me. You're 17, you don't know shit. You think you're hard? I'm harder. You think you're tougher? I'm tougher. You got clean and want to kill yourself? Same motherfuckin' story here. You want to know why?I'll tell you why. 'Cause you don't know how to live life. You don't have the tools ,You're too busy running around, trying to bullshit everybody into thinking you're hard, and you don't give a fuck, when in reality, you give so much of a fuck, you can't ever bear to be alive. 这里ali指出了rue的两重性，一面她故态复萌，所有人的知道她是个addict她生活不易，而她本人也并不【在意】，而另一方面，她又是如此在意她在人们心中的看法以至于痛苦到不能继续生活。换句话说，她同时可以很好也可以很糟，一切都指向了那句"whatver"，叔本华说人生在痛苦和无聊之间摇摆，那rue就是I'm good和I'm a piece of shit之间的叠加态，答案就是她的自由意志不由她。但我们能说她是不真诚的吗？第一季里她和Jules的画风，就是泥石流里的清流，就是世界上唯一的美好。

Ali: Why'd you relapse?
Rue: I don't know. Couldn't stop my mind from racing.
Ali: Racing about what?
Rue: Everything.
Ali: Hey, hey, get specific.
Rue: All the things I remember and all the things I wish I didn't.
第一季中我们已经知道了rue有躁郁症，无论是记得的事还是希望自己忘记的事，对于她没什么区别，所有一切都溶于生活这个大泽谭里。讽刺的是这恰恰是她后来药物滥用的引子。

rue这个表情是想笑还是想哭呢，答案是她既想笑又想哭。

rue坦白，其实自己一直都备有药物。

这几秒的表情太过微妙，大牙这个艾美看来名至实归。

Ali: Do you wanna get clean?
Rue: No
Ali: You sure?
Rue: Yep
Ali: I get it. I get it.
Rue: Is that fucked up?
Ali: What? That you don't want to get clean? Yeah, yeah, Of course it's fucked up.
Rue: Ah, I'm a piece of shit?
Ali: Yeah, yeah, yeah. You're a piece of shit. You're a piece of shit. All right, but, here's the silver lining. You're not a drug addict because you're a piece of shit. You're a piece of shit because you're a drug addict. You follow?

这也是后半段ali一直在开导rue的话术，rue的所作所为对她自己来说不可原谅而这世界又是如此糟糕，rue只有脱去这份纯净，来一场马尔科姆x式的革命，成为一个关心那些【小事】的人。而事实是没有多少人能从阴影中走出。

ali让rue要相信某种比她强大的事物，rue却反对说如果上帝存在那他一定不公平，当然这也是为什么上帝一定不能现身的解释之一，在hbo的另一部美剧《守望尘世》中，一部分人不明原因的消失了，剩下的人要在废墟上重建信仰，也探讨了类似的十分后现代主义的话题。

这句大概总结了rue和jules的关系，有点类似《伦敦生活》第二季中菲比与神父的关系，我们为什么要爱上帝？因为爱世人是如此痛苦。把Jules当药物替代的rue不可能真正戒掉毒瘾，只会让她像在开头一样嘟嘟嚷嚷着I'm good，以及在圣诞节听一首悲伤的歌。



把台词一点点还原下来是因为还原不了台词外的东西，我们无法表达真实，语言是无力的，而作为编剧艺术的对话，就在于把所念之物铺陈在所言之物中。每个人都能理解自己当下的生活状态，但编剧在笔下行与行之间剥丝抽茧，鞭辟入里，真的太佩服了。

不过因为实际因素省略了不少台词折损了流畅性，大家还是观得原片。
最后贴一个一秒便让我落泪的rue。