驯鹿宝宝

因为在这个世界上，我爱一样东西胜过爱她。一样东西。知道它是什么吗? 自我憎恨
It's because I loved one thing in this world more than I did her, right? One thing. And do you know what that one thing was： Hating myself.

我上瘾了，除此之外我什么也不会，因为我不能把握生命中的机会，我不能把握得到幸福的机会，所以我才搞砸了这段感情。
I'm addicted to it. don't know anything else. Because God forbid ever taking a chance at life. God forbid ever taking a chance at happiness. And that's why I messed it up with her.

因为我对自己的痛恨远胜于对她的爱，而我非常、非常爱她。
Because I hated myself so much more than I loved her. And I loved her so very much.

我这一辈子都在逃避，而这个……这场比赛只是我漫长的人生马拉松里又一段百米跑
I've spent my whole life，And this. This competition, this was just another hundred meters.

这场马拉松我是没法活着完成了，所以我现在不想跑了，因为我已经筋疲力尽跑不动了
in a marathon I was never gonna finish alive，So l'm gonna stop running now. Because I just don't have the legs forit anymore. I just don't.